requiem for a dream

where's paradise?

home is where the heart is. AUP is my home, it's the place where i grew up, it's where i met the people that are so dear to me. no matter where i go, no matter where i would be, my heart is still in AUP, it's my home forever...

im leavin tomorrow for chicago. mixed feelings. part of me is happy, coz i'll get to see my siblings again. a big part of me is sad though, i'll be leaving my mom again, and my bestfriends too, i'll be leaving home...

that's how my life is right now. oh well the happy part is i'm goin back =D

i had a blast last night, i had like a little "despedida" thing with some of my friends. we're not complete though but it's aight.

so yeah those are some quick updates bout my dear life. =D

i LOvE my FriEnd MJ

i miss my dear friend MJ sooo much. i just got an email from her... Mary Joy a.k.a. MJ is one of my best buddies in highschool... until now... =)

=) HEyy!!!! What happend to me bein in one of ur
friends list in your blog???? - - U forgot me
aLready? ..... hahaha its cool, it's all gud cuz Im
NICE =) haha! - But hey, i know dat I haven't been
ther for you for so long since d highskool days, but
Truly, I'd still come out to help ever you need
anythin... it's just lately i've been going through my
own things - problems n stuff including finances n
emotional things counting d fact dat this time i'm
even more than alone with my sis not bein here -
ya knoe wat i mean?? N livin' outside too with all
my bills to pay including...contracts and deals to
handle wit d house n neighbors to adjust too-- well-
I dnt nid to tell more but basic'ly you get d pic ryt?
Well as for you... r u still enrolling ds sem ? Or are
you off to heading back to Chicago?? Or are you
just gna lay out n chill til October -d next sem??
Watsup Alj?? I swear you never tell me amything
anymore... =) Well get at me when you get d
chance ayt?? Miss yer hilarious ass n hangin wit
yoo... =) Hey! Is our plan to shop togther at ATC
still on?? Im still up for it.. N lets have Jove come
wit us too =) Get back. *asap* -hahahaha! =>

so yeah that's my entry for now... just sharing. =)

thank GOD for friends

Make new friends, but keep the old; Those are silver, these are gold, New-made friendship, like new wine, age will mellow refine. Friendships that have stood the test- time and change- are surely best; brow my wrinkle, hair grow gray,

Friendship never knows decay. For 'mid old friends, tried and true, once more we our youth renew. But old friends, alas! may day, new friends must their place supply. Cherish friendship in your breast- New is good, but old is best; make new friends, but keep the old; those are silver. these are gold.

friends are heavensent. it's not an accident why they are here in our lives.

to all my friends, thanks for bein there for me.

to ate arnie and kuya scottie baker, thanks for your prayers and bein a family to me, i miss you all. hugs and kisses to einra, and goodlcuk with the new baby!

to all UC members, thanks for inspiring me through music, God bless our ministry...

the AUP Ambassadors, you guys are the best, thanks for bein a family to me...

to my bestfriends irene, enan, tata, ron, daniel, deemo, rj, russiel and mhai, you guys are the best, thanks for everything we've shared, the music, food, advices, money, the joys and the tears... OMGSH i can't imagine life without you...

to areum kim, i miss playin the violin wit you. i miss you...

to paulo, dude, i can't believe we'd go this far. thanks for bein there for me, for bringing me to alot of places i've never been before. it's great hanging out wit you the whole summer. i've learned a lot from you.

to linda agyemang, thanks for bein my best seatmate. you made my 2nd sem in college awesome.

to cham, hope to see you in US and get to know you more...

to ate christine ramos, you don't know how much i've learned from you. thanks for bein there for me during my "darkest" days.

to the hinsdale fil-am youth group, thanks for making my stay in chicago worth remembering. i miss you all.

to linn and jj, i miss you both. i wanna see you guys again! i miss our times in TX...

to all my friendsters, i love you all ;]

just thoughts...

i think love is one of the most powerful things in this world. love is not an obigation, its somethin you give willingly. there's nothin impossible for a person who is deeply in love with someone.

so yeah. that's how i define love. love has a deeper meaning though. sometimes, love also means letting go... sounds tough right?

when a person is in love, he sometimes risk everything for the one he loves, including friendship... how could you possibly be friends with someone that everytime you see that person, you feel like he's steallin your heart away? sounds cheesy but yeah it happens...

so yeah here goes the person in love, doin everythin for the one he loves. but sometimes there will come a point when you think that you've done everything you can, but still nothin happens. sometimes we just have to accept the truth. the truth that its hard to find someone who'll love you the way you wanted, and the fact that giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you in return. sometimes you really have to set free, let go, and move on....

even the heart gets tired...

summer reflections

summer has almost ended. this is like the craziest summer i ever had so far. it's like a roller coaster ride, filled with sudden drops and sharp turns. sometimes it would bring you up, then brings you down.  it was scary, exciting, tiring, and fun. i just love the thrills... and i think, i enjoyed the ride. =)

i've learned a lot this summer. i felt like i was in a summer school learning lessons about life. we all have different metaphors of life based on our situations. i realized that life is a test, everyday brings new challenges.

i've been so hard headed most of the time. i felt like i can do things on my own. but yeah things doesnt go the way i want it. i almost failed and quit the test, but yeah im still here. i've learned my lessons the hard way.

1. i learned not to take anyone for granted.

2. i learned not to expect to much from anyone. in the end, its gonna be just YOU and GOD.

3. i learned to love myself more.

4. i learned that loving someone so much doesn't assure that they'll love you back.

5.i learned that escape is not a solution to a problem.

so yeah those are some of the things i've learned. i stumbled and fell, but yeah no one's perfect. we all fail. and we all have the chance to rise again. and yeah don't forget, we have GOD.